2 and a half years as an MO in psychiatric department

Time to seriously think and analyze where I am heading.
So far I have gained a lot working in psychiatry.
However when it comes to that extra satisfaction and passion that pushes one to go the extra mile...still haven't found it. If this is truly the best career choice for me, the realization is coming very slowly...I have the patience to wait and see. However if I am to pursue further studies, the Masters application for next year ends in September 2011 ~which is exactly one month from now. I have to decide. And I have to decide fast.
Still cannot "see" which field is the best for me...

Allahu mustaan

Terus bekerja

Senyum dan gembira di atas jalan ini adalah suatu nikmat

Sedih dan menangis di atas jalan ini adalah suatu yang lebih nikmat

Menyedari bahawa perubahan pada diri dan perubahan pada binaan itu tidak akan tercapai hanya dengan perancangan dalam minda dan penyusunan dari jauh...suatu nikmat

Memulakan langkah dan bekerja untuk perubahan itu adalah suatu nikmat...
Tersilap, jatuh, terluka, gagal dalam kerja itu adalah suatu yang lebih nikmat...
Dapat bangun, belajar daripada kesilapan lalu, dan memulakan langkah kembali...itu teramat berharga!
Dapat terus dan terus bekerja sehingga akhirnya mendapat satu daripada 2 - menang atau syahid itu suatu pengharapan! Tiada pilihan ketiga dapat dibayangkan...

"Maka tetaplah (istiqamahlah) kamu pada jalan yang benar, sebagaimana diperintahkan kepadamu dan (juga) orang yang telah taubat beserta kamu dan janganlah kamu melampaui batas. Sesungguhnya Dia Maha Melihat apa yang kamu kerjakan.” - Surah Hud: ayat 112

"Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang mengatakan, “Tuhan kami ialah Allah", kemudian mereka tetap istiqamah maka tidak ada kekhawatiran terhadap mereka dan mereka tiada (pula) berduka cita. Mereka itulah penghuni-penghuni surga, mereka kekal di dalamnya;sebagai balasan atas apa yang telah mereka kerjakan." - Surah Ahqaf: 13-14

Hadith Rasulullah s.a.w~

عَنْ سُفْيَانَ بْنِ عَبْدِ اللَّهِ الثَّقَفِيِّ قَالَ قُلْتُ يَا رَسُولَ اللَّهِ قُلْ لِي فِي الْإِسْلَامِ قَوْلًا لَا أَسْأَلُ عَنْهُ أَحَدًا بَعْدَكَ وَفِي حَدِيثِ أَبِي أُسَامَةَ غَيْرَكَ قَالَ قُلْ آمَنْتُ بِاللَّهِ فَاسْتَقِمْ رواه مسلم

“Aku berkata, “Wahai Rasulullah katakanlah kepadaku satu perkataan dalam Islam yang aku tidak akan bertanya kepada seorang pun selain engkau. Beliau bersabda, “Katakanlah, “Aku beriman kepada Allah, kemudian beristiqamahlah (jangan menyimpang).” - HR Muslim dari Sufyan bin Abdullah

”Allahumma, Ya Muqallib Al-Qulub, Thabbit Qalbi ‘Alaa Deenik,”

Allahu mustaan

selamat hari raya aidilfitri

It has been exactly one year since my last entry.

Amazing how time flies...or rather how we let time fly.

I am still learning how to appreciate each and every moment of life, learning to gain as much as I can from everyone and every little experience.

Yesterday was Hari Raya Aidilfitri. It wasn't the ideal or perfect Hari Raya as one would imagine...but I am very thankful for all its imperfections that humbled me and reminded me of all of Allah's blessings. For whenever we feel that we are stuck in a very difficult situation...impossible situations, there is always a small hole with the light of hope to show us the way. All we have to do is purify our wish, work hard and pray to Allah~

" And those who strive in Our (cause),- We will certainly guide them to our Paths: For verily Allah is with those who do right. " al-Ankabut: verse 29

" When My servants ask thee concerning Me, I am indeed close (to them): I listen to the prayer of every suppliant when he calleth on Me: Let them also, with a will, Listen to My call, and believe in Me: That they may walk in the right way. " - al-Baqarah: verse 186