Finding a decent parking space near my house especially at night is a difficult task indeed.
So, while on the way back from some shopping one fine night.. I was praying hard that God will ease us in finding a parking space. The rain made me more desperate.
I kept repeating "robbiyassir wa laa tuassir" with so much hope & confidence.. For it has worked so many times before.
We reached the parking.. Looked around for the empty space awaiting us.. But there was none..
I was a little disappointed..
I asked my younger sister & cousin brother to go home first as it was raining and the alternative parkings were further away from our house block.
I consoled myself.. Must be for the best; If Allah has destined that there is no space despite our effort & prayers.. Then it must only be for the best.
Turned back to the parking in the open field which was under renovation. I drove around the parking area that was already complete and found no empty space. As I was driving towards the end of the spaces, I felt very sad and didn't see any options on where to park my car. At that moment, I realised that no matter how stuck I was, no matter even if I don't get a parking space that night or didn't get anything else I wanted/thought I needed... It was okay!
As long as Allah forgives me & gives me His Rahmah... If no parking space helps me get closer to Allah.. Then it is the best!
To gain Allah's love was more than everything I ever wanted.. Even more than a desperate parking space on a rainy night.. Huhu
Then, I made a turn back to the previous parking as my sister was bringing the umbrella from home. Along the way, voila! I saw an empty space near the market...
But I needed to do side parking! I am not good with side parking & the space was limited. Despite that, I tried adjusting 2 times but couldn't fit in the space. I didn't give up but I couldn't try again as I was blocking a car behind me from passing.
At that time, I learned that sometimes you find something very close to what you wanted or you were looking for and you try to make it work.
But you can't always succeed in adjusting & adapting; maybe what you need is to keep holding on to your dream (however impossible it may seem) and move on.. Try again!
(I also learned that I should practice more on my side parking techniques :p)
So, in the spirit of never giving up and trying again.. I was back at the initial parking space.
Still no empty space but I didn't feel the pain of disappointment this time..
By then, I had completely surrendered..I wasn't depending on my efforts or my prayers as before.. I felt totally dependant on Allah's Mercy and was just waiting for whatever parking space that was destined for me that night.
While waiting for my sister, I got the idea to just park by the main road side..both of us can come home with the umbrella, I thought to myself.
While I was reversing my car, waiting for my sister and preparing to go back to the main road, out of nowhere (okay.. Maybe they were from their respective houses) came 3 different drivers & took their cars out~
2 other cars were also waiting for empty space; so, the 3 of us got our parking in the parking place near to my block~
My sister arrived with the umbrella. The rain subsided a little.. And we walked home together~
I learned that what is meant to be yours will not be lost;
and what you almost got or really wanted but didn't get or what you once had but is now gone... All of these are simply not your provision (rezeki)
So..:::
Don't worry too much..
Set your aim, work your best, pray your heart out to the One who always listens & answers all prayers;
Try all options, be ready to adjust & adapt
But not all things you can change..know your limits and identify when is time to move on.
Never give up on your dream/aim.
Try again..
Don't rely on your efforts or even your prayers.. Give everything back to Allah.. Just surrender.. to His Will and Wisdom..
InsyaAllah you will see that Allah always has the best plans for you :) ^^
