Selamat hari raya Aidilfitri

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri...
Semoga Allah ampunkan semua dosa2 kita..
Maaf zahir dan batin atas segala kekhilafan diri ni.

Eid Mubarak!

TaqabalAllahu minna wa min kum (May Allah accept your deeds and my deeds..)

climbing up

We can cry and dwell over our past failures and always be stuck in a slump or we can use it to leap high into the future. We can be unduly proud of our once successful past and always be stagnant on a plateau that can go downhill anytime without the strength to support it's sustenance. On the other hand, we can use it to reach out and share with others - to achieve a higher degree of success together.

To maintain a gradient is hard ~ a plateau is a warning sign before a ditch;
To climb up from a dicth is even harder; but cannot stay in the dicth forever;
need to climb up..climb up fast and reach a higher point than previously.
Let's start working...

climbing hills OR going on trails?

Emergency&Trauma Department (ETD) is like climbing hills. 6 months in ETD felt so short, everyday was exciting..I crave for more and more. Even thinking about it now gives me energy..it doesn't necessarily make me happy but it gives me energy..like climbing a hill. So much fun with great company but even if I'm doing it alone, I am still full of energy. Once I reach the top, the satisfaction alone is worth it! You have to be focused and determined. When you have safely worked out one patient, you can move on to the next patient with minimal baggage.

Psychiatry is like going on a trail. You pick up clues as you go along...and perform neccessary tasks. It's more of enjoying the journey and making differences at each pit stop than what's awaiting at the end of the journey. You need patience and perseverance. You always re-evaluate your decisions based on patient outcome and response.

I also love to go on trails...but never-ending trails are exhausting and I just don't have the patience. Or can it be trained??
I love climbing hills more..I love firguring out how to reach the top..I love finally reaching the destination but don't know if I have the strength. Or can it be built? would love to believe it can.

Akan adakah peluang bertemu lagi?

Ramadhan akan pergi...
Apakah akan ada peluang bertemu lagi?
Adakah sudah puas menjamah kenikmatan dan keberkatannya?
Aduh, ruginya diri!
Dilalaikan dengan perkara-perkara yang tidak sepatutnya..perkataan yang sia-sia, perasaan yang tidak disukai Allah...astaghfirullah
Telah bertemukah dengan Lailatulqadar? Telah terampunkah dosa-dosa? Telah kembali fitrah? Astaghfirullah...
Hanya kasihMu yang aku cari ya Allah...
benar-benar, benarkanlah kata-kataku ini,
tuluskanlah cintaku padaMu, ya Allah,
penuhkanlah hatiku dengan kasih dan sayang padaMu.

Ya Allah,
lemahnya tawajjuhku padaMu
lemahnya ikatan hatiku denganMu
lemahnya tawakalku padaMu
lemahnya redhaku pada ketentuanMu

Ya Allah,
pun begitu...ku tahu Kau Maha Pengasih Maha Pemurah
kasihanilah hambaMu ini
ku datang padaMu dengan dosa menggunung tinggi
ku menagih RahmahMu, ku harapkan MaghfirahMu
Andai kau panjangkan usiaku bertemu Ramadhan lagi,
hatiku meronta-ronta akan buat yang lebih baik


Ya Allah,
ku harap cintaku bukan palsu
ku harap ikrarku bukan tipu
Ya Allah,
Kau limpahkanku dengan kasih dan sayangMu
Kau berikan hanya yang terbaik buat ku dalam semua keadaan...
walau ku sedar atau tidak sedar...QadarMu luar biasa hebatnya
Kau Maha Adil lagi Maha Bijaksana

Ya Allah,
Suburkanlah nikmat keimanan ini dan berikanlah kekuatan istiqamah,
Pandulah diri ini sentiasa di atas jalan yang lurus,
Bantulah aku membantu Deen ini..meneruskan perjalanan dari lorong-lorong aqidah yang bersambung dari Adam ke Muhammad s.a.w, kekasihMu, ya Allah...
membakar semangat daripada obor-obor perjuangan yang berkesinambungan...

Aku hanyalah AKU
terkapailah diriku tanpa PETUNJUK dariMu
Ya Allah,
bimbinglah..bantulah..

"Innaka ni'mal maula wa ni'ma nasir"