Selamat hari raya Aidilfitri

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri...
Semoga Allah ampunkan semua dosa2 kita..
Maaf zahir dan batin atas segala kekhilafan diri ni.

Eid Mubarak!

TaqabalAllahu minna wa min kum (May Allah accept your deeds and my deeds..)

climbing up

We can cry and dwell over our past failures and always be stuck in a slump or we can use it to leap high into the future. We can be unduly proud of our once successful past and always be stagnant on a plateau that can go downhill anytime without the strength to support it's sustenance. On the other hand, we can use it to reach out and share with others - to achieve a higher degree of success together.

To maintain a gradient is hard ~ a plateau is a warning sign before a ditch;
To climb up from a dicth is even harder; but cannot stay in the dicth forever;
need to climb up..climb up fast and reach a higher point than previously.
Let's start working...

climbing hills OR going on trails?

Emergency&Trauma Department (ETD) is like climbing hills. 6 months in ETD felt so short, everyday was exciting..I crave for more and more. Even thinking about it now gives me energy..it doesn't necessarily make me happy but it gives me energy..like climbing a hill. So much fun with great company but even if I'm doing it alone, I am still full of energy. Once I reach the top, the satisfaction alone is worth it! You have to be focused and determined. When you have safely worked out one patient, you can move on to the next patient with minimal baggage.

Psychiatry is like going on a trail. You pick up clues as you go along...and perform neccessary tasks. It's more of enjoying the journey and making differences at each pit stop than what's awaiting at the end of the journey. You need patience and perseverance. You always re-evaluate your decisions based on patient outcome and response.

I also love to go on trails...but never-ending trails are exhausting and I just don't have the patience. Or can it be trained??
I love climbing hills more..I love firguring out how to reach the top..I love finally reaching the destination but don't know if I have the strength. Or can it be built? would love to believe it can.

Akan adakah peluang bertemu lagi?

Ramadhan akan pergi...
Apakah akan ada peluang bertemu lagi?
Adakah sudah puas menjamah kenikmatan dan keberkatannya?
Aduh, ruginya diri!
Dilalaikan dengan perkara-perkara yang tidak sepatutnya..perkataan yang sia-sia, perasaan yang tidak disukai Allah...astaghfirullah
Telah bertemukah dengan Lailatulqadar? Telah terampunkah dosa-dosa? Telah kembali fitrah? Astaghfirullah...
Hanya kasihMu yang aku cari ya Allah...
benar-benar, benarkanlah kata-kataku ini,
tuluskanlah cintaku padaMu, ya Allah,
penuhkanlah hatiku dengan kasih dan sayang padaMu.

Ya Allah,
lemahnya tawajjuhku padaMu
lemahnya ikatan hatiku denganMu
lemahnya tawakalku padaMu
lemahnya redhaku pada ketentuanMu

Ya Allah,
pun begitu...ku tahu Kau Maha Pengasih Maha Pemurah
kasihanilah hambaMu ini
ku datang padaMu dengan dosa menggunung tinggi
ku menagih RahmahMu, ku harapkan MaghfirahMu
Andai kau panjangkan usiaku bertemu Ramadhan lagi,
hatiku meronta-ronta akan buat yang lebih baik


Ya Allah,
ku harap cintaku bukan palsu
ku harap ikrarku bukan tipu
Ya Allah,
Kau limpahkanku dengan kasih dan sayangMu
Kau berikan hanya yang terbaik buat ku dalam semua keadaan...
walau ku sedar atau tidak sedar...QadarMu luar biasa hebatnya
Kau Maha Adil lagi Maha Bijaksana

Ya Allah,
Suburkanlah nikmat keimanan ini dan berikanlah kekuatan istiqamah,
Pandulah diri ini sentiasa di atas jalan yang lurus,
Bantulah aku membantu Deen ini..meneruskan perjalanan dari lorong-lorong aqidah yang bersambung dari Adam ke Muhammad s.a.w, kekasihMu, ya Allah...
membakar semangat daripada obor-obor perjuangan yang berkesinambungan...

Aku hanyalah AKU
terkapailah diriku tanpa PETUNJUK dariMu
Ya Allah,
bimbinglah..bantulah..

"Innaka ni'mal maula wa ni'ma nasir"

School on Saturday

Going to school on a Saturday is not easy. You get really irritable and feel angry at the administrators for scheduling a replacement class on a Saturday. You are so used to it being a holiday, a time to laze around and sleep longer. It takes a lot of motivation to fight against the usual - fight against what has become a "habit" .

But a habit is something you build on. You can change it. First of all, you must believe that you can. You must believe that it is possible to change your attitude, provided that you are willing to allow the change to take place. Without first opening up and working on changing your mindset, you will not be able to change the way you behave.

As Allah says in the Quran:

"...Verily, Allah will not change the (good) condition of a people as long as they do not change their state (of goodness) themselves.."

(translation from Surah Ar-Rad', verse 11)

When we have decided deep within our hearts that we want to improve ourselves, we must work towards our goal in the best way possible. It is odd to think that we think smart of different strategies and work hard everyday to make money but when it comes to changing values and attitudes, we expect "miracles".

The science behind how the world functions expects us to WORK to make changes. In simple laws of Physics, mechanical work = amount of energy transferred by a Force acting through a distance.So, we cannot sit around, do nothing and expect ourselves to change for the better.

Try giving some time and effort to work on improving ourselves and also the people around us to make the change that we desire.

At all times, humbly pray that Allah gives us the strength to want what is good and guide us always in the path to success.

" Verily, this (Verses od the Quran) is an admonition, so whoever wills, let him take a path to his Lord (Allah). [29]
But you cannot will, unless Allah wills. Verily, Allah is Ever All-Knowing, All-Wise." [30]

(translations from Surah Al-Insan, verse 29 -30)

Perfect Reliance

Umar r.a said : I heard Allah's Messenger s.a.w saying: "If you all depend on Allah with due reliance, He would certainly give you provision as He gives it to birds who go forth hungry in the morning and return with full belly at dusk."

[At-Tirmidhi - Hasan]

HOPE

No matter at what point you are in your life, there is always hope. All of us would hope that today be better than yesterday and that tomorrow be better than today.

The possibility of hope is a like a persistent source of light even in the darkest room. With hope, we build our visions and dreams. What we truly want is what pushes us to work towards our goals. The inner motivation is essential to give us the kick start and also to sustain us through tough times of trial.

For life as we know it is full of trials and tribulations which makes it interesting. From every step we take and every curve we pass, we learn and we grow to improve ourselves. I pray that all of us will be given the inner strength of wanting good and the determination to stay steadfast on the right path to success.